A Wee`Bit of Me

Losing It?

I have realized this for a while....

I have lost my passion in almost every senses. I used to have a pretty big positive thinking in life things, but at the moment and so many times, i feel i just want to sleep and cuddle up with my pillows (....hibernate like a polar bear) for months.

I don't care whether the sun have risen or not. I just want to put my blanket up to my face and again.... sleep (and hibernate...). Probably with a little wishes that everything that happening now will just dissapear.

I guess ... I'm a negative thinker and a coward-ass. (I am).

But I'm so damn tired with all of this, that's all. I'm not that strong. I'm demanding for my rights to be loved, to be treated good. NOW!... er..now? or what?

Or I'll shut everything down again like before, and it worked. At least it doesn't jeopardize my own feeling. It isn't the nicest way to act on people that declare they love you (or at least they think they love you. Hah!), but come what to think... It is only you, your own self, that can guard your own heart.

No one else can.

So? .... should I or shouldn't I?

::Counting Blessings::.....Picture....

Found this old' song, it was a hit while I'm still in... ehm High School? It makes me miss lotz of friends from high school... (remember our barbeque times and sing a long together? ahhahaha)...

I saw you yesterday with an old friend
It was the same old same how've you been?
Since you've been gone my worlds been dark and grey
You reminded me of brighter days
I hoped you were comin' home to stay
I was headed to church
I was off to drink you away

I thought about you for a long time
Can't seem to get you off my mind
I can't understand why we're living life this way
I found your picture today
I swear I'll change my ways
I just called to say I want you to come back home
I just called to say I love you, come back home

Enjoy^^~