A Wee`Bit of Me

::Counting Blessings::....The 5th Hope?...

Hope is part of my world.

Praying that this time IT IS the answer. Seeing from the brighter sights, I have the opportunities to visit the anchesters land, places and "trying" the latest hopes in medicines technology....

I can feel it growing inside as if it counting the clock that is ticking for me. I take that as a reminder that so many this left undone and unbroken. It might be a life-booster to make me understand that life is too precious to be fill in with taking others for granted or not having any empathy on others. It might be an apprentice on helping me understand that life is so broad, so diverse that I'm only a tiny dot among other dots.

You might not know, when is your time. Neither do I. But I do have this "reminder clock" inside. So I'm going to use it good.

::Counting Blessings::....Rain and Tears......

I wish I could surrender my soul and Shed the clothes that become my skin,

See the liar that burns within my needing...

How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold and had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning....

I guess it's time I run far, far away...
find comfort in pain...

All pleasure's the same, it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.

I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind,  Hold memory close at hand, Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell. and I would save my soul.

I'm so cold from fear...

I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words, it's just tears and rain....

(...you could've spent more years with me and hugging me with your complete Love, but now here I am. Alone. Preparing myself to get to you, soon. Holding inside my pain and illness, just waiting for the time to stop ticking and my chance to by your side in Heaven...after these years, I still misses you alot)